Why me?

Things aren’t going the way I expected
I’m contemplating leaving theworld
All of a sudden when I make my mind to leave
This Dreamcrusher has a trick up her sleeve.
Leave or stay again is the question
I need to hurry and find a solution!
I just need to be cared for and loved!
I just need to be a wife!
I just need a happy life!
I need protection of my heart until I make that right start!
So hurt and my mind so discomfigured
Why am I sitting here I’m glad I have no trigger
Who would have figured I’d be in this domicile
But what’s really messed up is I lost my smile
Staring down In the rain
Looking at my reflection
And just wanting attention
What I get in the end is just more pain
Trapped confused desperate and lonely is what I see
And now I have a question "why me?"